themindpalaceofaqueen

themindpalaceofaqueen:

deanwinchesterinmyheart:

themindpalaceofaqueen:

themindpalaceofaqueen:

deanwinchesterinmyheart:

i feel so sad and empty… i feel purposefulless. I was hanging on FOR this convention. and now what

what do i have now?

This is exactly what I meant. The only thing I can think of is needing to give myself another future goal, but I…

This is what life has always been for me. I have always felt out of place, hopeless, and pointless. It only gets worse with time. I used to have reasons to keep going like my animals, my mom, my life goals, but almost none of that matters anymore. So, what to do now? I need to find another reason. And this needs to happen before what happened this past year happens again because I never want to be in that place again.

i know what you mean.  so let’s find reasons together.  I feel like maybe the depression won’t be as bad if i have a depression buddy

Alright, depression buddy, what’s one thing you’ve always really wanted to do?

take an impulsive road trip somewhere. just like wake up one day and decide “let’s go to the beach” and hop in the car and go. escapism sounds nice, you know?